Fear of the Unknown

 This week is a "choose your own adventure" post, so I am able to talk about anything (as long as it relates to what I've been learning about in class). 

For the past couple weeks we have been learning about Social Media in Sports and Journalism. Looking through all of my notes, I can't help but notice how many different aspects there are to these jobs and how many different rules and guidelines you must follow in this profession. 

I've very much enjoyed this class and may want to pursue a career in the social media world, but I have to be honest, writing down all the things that people who work in social media have to have memorized, take into account, remember off the top of their heads etc. kind of deflates my confidence. 

I'm 20 years old and have never had a job, which is something that scares me a lot because I'm of an age where I should be working. Every job I've applied for never get back to me because of my lack of experience. (But I obviously can't get experience if no one will give me a job.) I feel myself getting more and more anxious about my future and finding a job now and after college. I only have 2 more years of college and then I'm on my own. I realize this is a fear that many people my age share which is why I wanted to address it. 

Something in particular that worries me deeply, is my inability to retain and memorize important information. As I've probably mentioned before, I have a learning disability called ADHD. Because of this, I have always struggled very much in classes like math and science. I also struggle with memorization when it comes to important information. However, if you challenge me on my knowledge of the Harry Potter Franchise, I would surprise you with all of the information I have crammed into my head. I have only ever retained useless information because I guess I am just more interested and passionate about the pointless knowledges of life. This has bitten me in the behind several times in my school career, but somehow I'm still soldering on. 

I guess what I want you to take away from this post is that there are so many unknowns in life and so many reasons to worry and stress about what you don't know and can't control. I have been doing this since I was a kid and It's exhausting! I'm hoping that because I really have enjoyed this class and am interested in the social media world, this might lead to a possible future internship or job. I'm slowly but surely finding things that I'm interested in and I have to work on reminding myself that it's okay that I don't know what I want to do with my life yet. I just need to take it day by day and I'll find a way, just like I always do.

I hope this helps someone else out there ease their worries about the future and all the stress of finding a job and having a good career. Take it day by day and you'll find your way.